Jim Woodring

al trepar por cubos de vapor
donde no queda más que recordar
te encontré durmiendo
sin saber
que estabas junto a mí

escondí estampas con tu olor
para así poder un volver
y seguir trepando
cuando nadie
se acuerde ya de ti

Crave

"Quiero dormir a tu lado y hacerte las compras y cargarte las bolsas y decirte cuánto me gusta estar contigo pero me siguen obligando a hacer estupideces (...)
Y quiero jugar al escondite y regalarte mi ropa y decirte cuánto me gustan tus zapatos y sentarme en el borde de la bañera mientras te bañas y hacerte masajes en el cuello y darte besos en los pies y llevarte de la mano e irme contigo a cenar y que no me importe que comas de mi plato y encontrarme contigo en el Rudy's y hablar del día y teclear tus cartas y llevar tus cajas y reírme de tus paranoias y regalarte discos que nunca escucharás y ver películas buenísimas y ver películas malas y quejarme del programa de radio y hacerte fotos mientras duermes y levantarme para prepararte café con tostadas y panecitos y salir contigo a tomar un café al Florent en medio de la noche y dejar que me robes los cigarrillos y que nunca tengas fuego y contarte lo que vi en la tele la otra noche y acompañarte al oculista y no reírme de tus chistes y desearte por la mañana pero dejarte dormir un poco más y mientras darte besos en la espalda y acariciar tu piel y decirte cuánto me gusta tu pelo tus ojos tus labios tu cuello tu pecho tu culo y sentarme a fumar en la escalera hasta que vuelva tu vecina y sentarme a fumar en la escalera hasta que vuelvas y preocuparme cuando te atrases y asombrarme cuando te adelantas y regalarte girasoles e ir a tu fiesta y bailar hasta quedar negro y estar triste cuando me equivoque y feliz cuando me perdones y mirar tus fotos y desear haberte conocido desde siempre y sentir tu voz en mis oídos y sentir tu piel contra mi piel y tener mucho miedo cuando te enojes y se te ponga un ojo negro y otro azul y tu pelo hacia la izquierda y una cara de oriental y decirte estás preciosa y abrazarte cuando estés ansiosa y abrazarte más cuando sufras y desearte sólo con olerte y abusarme al tocarte y gemir cuando esté a tu lado y gemir cuando no esté a tu lado y babear sobre tu pecho y envolverte toda la noche y sentir frío cuando me quites la manta y sentir calor cuando no lo hagas y derretirme cuando sonrías y desintegrarme cuando rías y no entender y preguntarte por qué crees que te estoy rechazando cuando no te estoy rechazando y preguntarme cómo puedes pensar que yo sería capaz de rechazarte a ti y preguntarme quién eres pero aceptarte igual y contarte acerca del ángel del niño del bosque encantado que voló sobre el océano porque te amaba y escribirte poemas y preguntarme por qué no me crees y tener un sentimiento tan profundo que no encuentra palabras y querer compartirte un gatito y sentir celos de él cuando reciba más atención que yo y retenerte en la cama cuando te tengas que ir y llorar como un bebé cuando finalmente te vayas y vaciar los ceniceros y comprarte regalos que no quieras y llevármelos otra vez y pedirte que te cases conmigo y que tú me digas que no otra vez pero siempre fue en serio desde la primera vez y deambular por toda la ciudad pensando que sin ti está vacía y querer todo lo que quieres y pensar que me estoy perdiendo a mí mismo y saber que contigo estoy a salvo y contarte de mí mismo lo peor e intentar darte lo mejor porque tú lo mereces y contestar tus preguntas cuando prefiera no hacerlo y decirte la verdad cuando en realidad no quiera e intentar ser honesto porque sé que tú lo prefieres y pensar que todo se acabó pero aferrarme allí durante diez minutos más hasta que me eches de tu vida y te olvides de quién soy e intentar acercarme a ti porque es hermoso aprender a conocerte y el esfuerzo vale la pena y hablarte mal en alemán y peor en hebreo y hacer el amor contigo a las tres de la madrugada y de alguna de alguna manera comunicarte ese amor abrumador arrasador incondicional omnipresente y sempiterno que enriquece el corazón y libera la mente ese amor eterno y presente que siento por ti"

Sarah Kane

Autobiography of the eye

Invisible things, rooted in cold,
and growing toward this light
that vanishes
into each thing
it illumines. Nothing ends. The hour
returns to the beginning
of the hour in which we breathed: as if
there were nothing. As if I could see
nothing
that is not what it is.

At the limit of summer
and its warmth: blue sky, purple hill.
The distance that survives.
A house, built of air, and the flux
of the air in the air.

Like these stones
that crumble back into earth.
Like the sound of my voice
in your mouth.

Paul Auster

Y la avispa

Children of her type contrive the purest philosophies. Ada had worked out her own little system. Hardly a week had elapsed since Van’s arrival when he was found worthy of being initiated in her web of wisdom. An individual’s life consisted of certain classified things: "real things" which were unfrequent and priceless, simply "things" which formed the routine stuff of life; and "ghost things," also called "fogs," such as fever, toothache, dreadful disappointments, and death. Three or more things occurring at the same time formed a "tower," or, if they came in immediate succession, they made a "bridge." "Real towers" and "real bridges" were the joys of life, and when the towers came in a series, one experienced supreme rapture; it almost never happened, though. In some circumstances, in a certain light, a neutral "thing" might look or even actually become "real" or else, conversely, it might coagulate into a fetid "fog". When the joy and the joyless happened to be intermixed, simultaneously or along the ramp of duration, one was confronted with "ruined towers" and "broken bridges."
The pictorial and architectural details of her metaphysics made her nights easier than Van’s, and that morning —as on most mornings— he had the sensation of returning from a much more remote and grim country than she and her sunlight had come from.
Her plump, stickily glistening lips smiled.
(When I kiss you here, he said to her years later, I always remember that blue morning on the balcony when you were eating a tartine au miel; so much better in French.)
The classical beauty of clover honey, smooth, pale, translucent, freely flowing from the spoon and soaking my love’s bread and butter in liquid brass. The crumb steeped in nectar.
"Real thing?" he asked.
"Tower," she answered.
And the wasp.
The wasp was investigating her plate. Its body was throbbing.
"We shall try to eat one later," she observed, "but it must be gorged to taste good. Of course, it can’t sting your tongue. No animal will touch a person’s tongue. When a lion has finished a traveler, bones and all, he always leaves the man’s tongue lying like that in the desert" (making a negligent gesture).
"I doubt it."
"It’s a well-known mystery."
Her hair was well brushed that day and sheened darkly in contrast with the lusterless pallor of her neck and arms. She wore the striped tee shirt which in his lone fantasies he especially liked to peel off her twisting torso. The oilcloth was divided into blue and white squares. A smear of honey stained what remained of the butter in its cool crock.
"All right. And the third Real Thing?"
She considered him. A fiery droplet in the wick of her mouth considered him. A three-colored velvet violet, of which she had done an aquarelle on the eve, considered him from its fluted crystal. She said nothing. She licked her spread fingers, still looking at him.
Van, getting no answer, left the balcony. Softly her tower crumbled in the sweet silent sun.

Vladimir Nabokov, Ada or ardor.

Люблю глаза твои, мой друг
С игрой их пламенно-чудесной
Когда их приподымешь вдруг
И, словно молнией небесной
Окинешь бегло целый круг

Но есть сильней очарованья:
Глаза, потупленные ниц
В минуты страстного лобзанья
И сквозь опущенных ресниц
Угрюмый, тусклый огнь желанья
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I love your eyes, my dear
their splendid, sparkling fire
when suddendly you raise them so
to cast a swift, embracing glance
like lighting flashing in the sky.

But there's a charm that is greater still
when my love's eyes are lowered,
when all is fired by passion's kiss
and through the downcast lashes
I see the dull flame of desire.

Fyodor Tyutchev

92

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

e.e. cummings

may my heart always be open to little
birds who are the secrets of living
whatever they sing is better than to know
and if men should not hear them men are old

may my mind stroll about hungry
and fearless and thirsty and supple
and even if it's sunday may i be wrong
for whenever men are right they are not young

and may myself do nothing usefully
and love yourself so more than truly
there's never been quite such a fool who could fail
pulling all the sky over him with one smile

e.e.cummings

as we lie side by side

as
we lie side by side
my little breasts become two sharp delightful strutting towers and
i shove hotly the lovingness of my belly against you

your arms are
young;
Your arms will convince me,in the complete silence speaking
upon my body
their ultimate slender language.

do not laugh at my thighs.

there is between my big legs a crisp city.
when you touch me
it is Spring in the city;the streets beautifully writhe,
it is for you;do not frighten them,
all the houses terribly tighten
upon your coming;
and they are glad
as you fill the streets of my city with children.

my love you are a bright mountain which feels.
you are a keen mountain and an eager island whose
lively slopes are based always in the me which is shrugging,which is
under you and around you and forever:i am the hugging sea.
O mountain you cannot escape me
your roots are anchored in my silence;therefore O mountain
skillfully murder my breasts,still and always

i will hug you solemnly into me.

e.e. cummings

VII

i like my body when it is with your
body. is is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz
of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh... And eyes big love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you so quite new

e.e. cummings

i will wade out

i will wade out
till my thighs are steeped in burning flowers
I will take the sun in my mouth
and leap into the ripe air
Alive
with closed eyes
to dash against darkness
in the sleeping curves of my body
Shall enter fingers of smooth mastery
with chasteness of sea-girls
Will i complete the mystery
of my flesh
I will rise
After a thousand years
lipping
flowers
And set my teeth in the silver of the moon

e.e. cummmings